Okay, I've been slacking, I've been reading and enjoying the lulls of my one six-week class, not over-doing anything, and relaxing. It's been rather blissful compared to the chaos that was spring semester. So, what the heck am I writing about today? Well, to be quite frank (and I'm never frank, sometimes I'm not even "Em") I haven't a clue what I'll write about.
My next few weeks are going to be a little hectic, between birthdays, retirements, fathers day, a friends wedding, and a trip to Vegas (not to mention bi-weekly physical therapy), I'm on the brink of another rush of acceleration! All the while feeding my anxious cat her kitty-Valium, studying developmental psychopathology which, I assure you, is thoroughly fascinating, and attempting to choose Master's Degree programs (maybe even doctorate programs) to apply to in the fall. Life is...busy...but apparently not busy enough. They, (and isn't it always the proverbial 'they'?) want me to do more. I need to be volunteering, interning, networking, dancing, singing, and parading my awesomeness despite my general lack of interest and exhaustion. Really, I guess the biggest problems I have right now, it the seemingly simple, What the hell do I do with the rest of my life? question.
Looking a different programs I'm forced to look at how many more years I want to spend in school, not to mention what do I even want to study should I want to continue to educate myself (which I kind of have to, as I chose a stupid major in which a BS will take me all of nowhere...smart move on my part) do I want to go out of my major and study something else that might be slightly more practical? Do I want to stay within my field and go all the way, attempt a PhD? If I stay in my field do I go clinical? Occupational? Something else? If I leave my field...where should I go? Do I want to spend 2, 4, 5, or 7 more years in school and sacrifice the last bits of my youth to the cold walls of University? Where will any of this take me?
I don't know any of these answers, I'm randomly searching for the rest of my life, and completely lost. No one can tell me the answers, and I don't really have anyone to help, but soon, I will have to come to a conclusion, sooner rather than later.
So, off I go, to medicate my cat and finish my cocktail. This decision can wait another day.
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